narcissism
I love myself and I really wanna try new things.
I despise my daily dejavus of doing nothing.
It’s time to seek some all new journey on my own.
Though at first I know I will encounter some social suicide, crowd torture but sooner or later
I believe I’ll get use to it.
I just have to remind myself that I’m over with high school now. Welcome to the real world, MONIQUE.
I may not be as clever as I sound but basically I have a long way to go to reach my fame.
Vanity isn’t my middle name, coz I am furthermore than that.
Before I thought my life was worthless with full of sorrow.
Lately I realized there’s more to life
than living the same.
Some people taught me to be courageous to get through everything.
The others have the attitude of hatred, which is not intimidating on my part.
I’m not the someone
they could look up for nor envy about.
I’m not perfect, I commit the same fault at times, there were
tough times that I was also selfish, foolish and yes, I sinned a lot.
And that what makes life imperfect.
Relationship isn’t all about commitments. I had many past relationships like boyfriends, best friends.
When those relationships were putted to end, I didn’t regret setting it free or let myself carry all the burden. But I did regret one thing though…. and that’s for approbating them to be part of my terrible history with relationships.
Now, I have a phobia with relationships, it’s no longer easy for me.
My heart runs scared to open up again then go for love again.
Even with friendships, I am skeptic because some of them would simply take advantage of you, and roughly defraud.
Some also "dungivafuck" and saying
things like their always there when I need something like that but the fact is whenever you need them
the most they spawn silly excuses, very ungracious.
And how would you feel if your friends said some negative things behind your back?
Will looks count? No, looks are deceiving.
You’ll never know that maybe the ones being you’re best friend is actually betraying you.
Me as a friend, I listen to their problems and give some advice, comfort.
I can’t promise things like I’ll be there 24/7 which is way impossible to happen.
If I could be there, I would and if I couldn’t -Well I have my problems of my own too you know.
Sometimes you just have to think for yourself. Who knows what’s best for you than your very self right? Problems are not to blame by anybody in some circumstance, God provides us problems/challenges to test our ability on how strong we are with life.
And probably to know our limitations.
