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For me, 2007 is a year of adaptation, reflection and gratification. Adaptation not only with my new environment, new set of friends, new lifestyle but also an adaptation with my new self. There were a lot of trials I have gone throughout the year that changed my persona. Somehow this year for me is a period of maturity not only mentally, emotionally but also spiritually. It also made me reflect with my life and be grateful to those people who stood by me through the years and for all the blessings I received.

8 lessons I learned this year: *why eight? Because this year is 2008 1.Always be true to yourself. Let us not live life with pretensions because you’re just fooling yourself and in the end, you will just regret it.2.Step out of your comfort zone…Do not be afraid to take risks…you’ll be surprised on how far you can still go and that there are countless opportunities waiting for you.

3.Friendship is not about how long you have been friends but it is more of how you show them their worth in your life and how you spend your time together.4.Always count your blessings. We keep looking for things we don’t have and leave some things behind that have always been there but we were too blind to see its worth until it’s gone.

5.Never doubt God’s plan for you. There are things in life that happens for a reason…and in times of crisis, always hold on to God and you will see that God indeed, has better plans for you. I also realized when we pray to God and ask for something…even though sometimes we have to wait for a long time…when he answers our prayer…it is more than what we asked for.

6.If you have nothing good to say…better shut up. Less talk fewer problems.

7.Never let one fall stop you from catching your dream. Let go of the past and live for the present.

8.When you love someone…do not try to change them…love him for who they are. Their imperfection makes them perfect. And even though you got yourself heartbroken a thousand times, do not lose hope that someday the right man will come and sweep off your feet.

The tears you cried

and he doesn’t even care
so many lies
tell me why they used to be there
the games he played he’s been plain’ from the start
you give, he takes
and it breaks your heart

I think it’s time
that you need to face the truth
and realize
he’s not good enough for you
Always the same
You keep giving one more chance
he’ll never change, don’t you understand

You deserve better than he’s treatin you
Why would anybody wanna be that cruel ( I din’t understand)

You deserve someone who will treat you right
If you ant, I’ll be there any place, any time

he thinks of him
and it’s all it seems you do
(I will)

His friends there’s no time to spend with you
He stay away and he doesn’t even call
no explenation; nothing at all

You deserve better than he’s treatin you
Why would anybody wanna be that cruel ( I din’t understand)
You deserve someone who will treat you right

If you ant, I’ll be there any place, any time

If you only knew
the things I give to you
I’ll be watchin, waitin, hopin you’ll see ( you’ll see)

That if love is what you want
I’ve got all you need

He should be treatin you right
instead of makin you cry

I never make that mistake

All I’m tryin to say :

You deserve better than he’s treatin you
Why would anybody wanna be that cruel ( I din’t understand)

You deserve someone who will treat you right
If you ant, I’ll be there any place, any time

You deserve better than he’s treatin you

Why would anybody wanna be that cruel ( I din’t understand)

You deserve someone who will treat you right
If you ant, I’ll be there any place, any time

REALIZE

Realize, realize
realize, realize

       what do u think??

Somewhere I have never travelled..

somewhere i have never travelled, gladly beyond

any experience, your eyes have their silence:

in your most frail gesture are things which enclose me,

or which i cannot touch because they are too near

your slightest look will easily unclose me

though i have closed myself as fingers,

you open always petal by petal myself as Spring opens

(touching skilfully,mysteriously)her first rose

or if your wish be to close me, i and

my life will shut very beautifully ,suddenly,
as when the heart of this flower imagines

the snow carefully everywhere descending;

nothing which we are to perceive in this world equals
the power of your intense fragility:whose texture

compels me with the color of its countries,

rendering death and forever with each breathing

(i do not know what it is about you that closes

and opens;only something in me understands

the voice of your eyes is deeper than all roses)
nobody,not even the rain,has such small hands

–>>poem that i love most<<–

FILL IT UP PLEASE…

If you read this journal, even if I don’t speak to you often, post a memory of me.

It can be anything you want.

It can be good or bad, just so long as it happened.

Then post this on your journal too!

Be surprised (or not) about what people remember about you.

I love myself and I really wanna try new things.
I despise my daily dejavus of doing nothing.

It’s time to seek some all new journey on my own.
Though at first I know I will encounter some social suicide, crowd torture but sooner or later
I believe I’ll get use to it.
I just have to remind myself that I’m over with high school now. Welcome to the real world, MONIQUE.

And probably to know our limitations.